but.

i should go out to mums more often, but i dont. i should talk to my dad more, but i dont. i should be trying harder at uni, but im not. i shouldnt waste my days away, but i do. i should stop being lazy and go on a trip, but i wont. i love you, but im scared. i think things are always ok, but they arent. i should be realistic, but im not

Ashleigh and Sarah

"Trust can take years to build, but only a second to break." Unknown

good morning world. and what a not so swell morning it is.  i can hear the rain on the roof.  i finally found out when i get my results back, which is a good thing i guess. and i been spending heaps of time with my friends too, which is another good thing. Good things eh, theyre only limited...




--x

I want one

Dear Body,

Plz can you call up the good cells and get them to distroyy my evil sickness?
k, thanks

regards,
ashleigh

Down with the sickness.

So my exams are over.
no more uni until next march.
THANK YOU LOVELY LORD <3

im just nervous now for my results...

Im still sick, its so bad. kelvin had to get up many times last night, to get me drinks and what not so i'd stop coughing. So thank you kelvin for taking care of me. =] .i am so exhausted, even though i had 16 hours sleep.

i saw surrogates today, shouldve. as everyone said, it WAS average. its ok, dinner made up for it. Goode Brothers is win.

so... life!
i guess i missed out on that while i was at uni.
hopefully ill be going to town this weekend!
and work and stuffs.

ugh. my life
love love love you


---x

only 24 hours to go

today was insane
i am so exhausted

so i guess the endless days of studying in the library have finally paid off, as i finished to of my exams today, hopefully with more than a "meh" result.

Today i also:
1. Had fun abusing Hadley via text
2. Ate humungous sushi
3. Lold with Luke Makenzie on the bus home.. at an asian who could not stop swaying in his sleep,  the lady beside him was in pure horror because he kept falling on her
4. drank sum juice
5. drank sum v
6. i had a shower.
7. um..

i need to dry my hair and go to sleep
its gonna be a very early night tonight. i need my rest for my last exam before i get incredibly crunkfucked after my last exam with brit as vesbarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

so.
Nyt ;]

--x

Whatever

if all this happens, im 500 metres away from you, in this state and you say "whatever", it truly shows the proof youre willing give.

So I run, hide and tear myself up. Start again with a brand new name. And eyes that see into infinity. I will disappear. I told you once and I'll say it again. I want my message read clear

...

ouch.

Forget about the truth and forget about the lies. Forget about the people who have influenced your life. forget about the rules and forget the emotions. forget that you hurt me, i fucking hate being your victim.

Take me to another movie,

Matthew Jenkins.

Study.

the 6th floor of the library buzzes. students whisper. phones vibrate. Pages turn. Coughing, coughing. chairs shuffle.  The book lays open. Riddled with mistakes. Pen askew. Sip of energy drink

.. Back to work.

Help Me

Its like im crumbling inside.
ive turned into this crazy person. i want these stupid exams to be over, and i want to sleep soundly at night. i havent had a proper sleep in a while. my body aches from the strains i have inflicted on myself. On the outside im fine, but on the inside im falling apart.

I was on the bus today, shuffling my music on the ipod aimlessley, when the sudden flood of panic took over me. i dont even know why i was panicking, i havent done anything, forgotten anyone.. all i know is that it was miserable.
i continued to shuffle my music rapidly until the emotions left me.

Once bitten, twice shy.

I have deprived you.